THIS IS NOT ABOUT ANY ONE PERSON IN PARTICULAR BUT A FINISHED PART OF MY LIFE:
Have you ever been someone’s friend but they weren’t your friend?
You know, you’ve been there for them. Prayed for them. Had an available ear or shoulder to cry on for them. You were always the one to pick up the phone and check on them. Gave them honest advice or had gas money for them. A true friend for them. But…
It was completely and totally un-reciprocated, unappreciated?
Then was that person really a friend? Friendship is a two way street. It gives more than it receives. When it receives, it strives to give even more.
There is a difference between association and friendship.
I’m glad I’ve learned the difference.
Regardless of how my friends, associates, fellow human beings might treat me, I’ve learned that love, true unconditional love, doesn’t look for anything in return. Love IS the return on your investment in love. In spite of what others may have put me through, I have determined to keep my heart and soul open to love. Not materialistic love, not eros love, not even just agape love but complete and total immersion of love. God is love.
I have very, very few friends in this world. Yet I have great love for almost everyone in this world. (God knows there are a few I’m working on loving, just being honest.)
My prayer this morning is for God to show me how to love more deeply, more earnestly and more honestly. I want to have a greater heart for people, especially the unlovely and the unloved. These are the ones who need love the most.
To all those who threw my honest and true friendship back in my face. For all of you who turned a blind eye to my needs and desires in order to fulfill your own selfish whims and needs; to all who under-appreciated my love and took advantage of my naivety, I release you to Father God. I forgive each and every hurt and pain you caused me. I let you go and give you to Him. For both our sake’s, I no longer harbor the resentment and anger I caused in my heart when you didn’t reciprocate my feelings. I no longer feel the need to hold hatred and malice toward you. I release the feelings of guilt and shame for not being the friend I should have been to you. I forgive myself for doing the things I did to gain and hold your attention. I speak healing and restoration in every area of our lives which was made void and heartbroken because of each others actions. I decree all unnatural and ungodly soul ties are now broken and the apron strings of dependency are untied and declared null. I speak over myself and decree I am now free to love without limits and without hesitation. I accept all that may come with loving the unloveable, including rejection, hurt, humiliation, and heartbreak. I decree the strength of God is my portion and His protection is my covering. I vow this day to allow Holy Spirit to do heart surgery and cut all all unforgiveness from me. I am allowing Holy Spirit to find every hard place hidden within my soul and break up the hardened soil and make it soft, and ready for love to be planted deep within. I release this IN THE NAME OF JESUS with expectation and thanksgiving…
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