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“Earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal” Thomas Moore (1779-1852)*
*How many of you thought that’s a Bible scripture?
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3 (NIV)
I don’t like disappointment. Who does? Recent, transparent history, I just experienced it. (Book of Andrea chapter 53 verses 20-32) This time, I’ve chosen to fully embrace the feeling of it. Why? Because whatever part I played in garnering it to me, whatever characteristics I possess which drew “them” to me, whatever flaws I have that said “it’s ok to disappoint her”, I need to let God expose it and change it in me. I’ve decided to fully FEEL the disappointment, rejection and shame so I won’t make the same mistakes again.
This doesn’t mean I’m going wallow or stay in my feelings. I will not allow it to make me wary of people and reject meaningful relationships. Nor will I allow the companion demons of depression and unworthiness come in and set up shop in me. No, they are permanently banned from my premises. I am consciously feeling these things though, so God can heal my sorrow.
See, I am convinced we rush thru the process of recovery of negative feelings and sorrow so we won’t feel bad any more. We brush it aside, ignore it or just plain won’t allow ourselves to FEEL pain, heartache and shame. But, if we don’t acknowledge the pain, how can God heal the pain? Transparent I must be in order to be healed. Open and honest I must be in order to change what I’ve been attracting to my life.
I’ve experienced rejection and disappointment lately. It doesn’t feel good. It hurts. My heart has been broken yet again. But God! Only God can take the brokenhearted and make a beautiful mosaic out of the pieces. My job is to stay in that place just long enough to find all of the pieces on the ground so I can present them to Holy Spirit to fix.
Religion will attempt to tell you don’t feel bad. But RELATIONSHIP with God reveals it’s ok to feel bad and then give the feelings to Him to care for you. When I went to God rejected, He embraced me and called me His own. When I said I was brokenhearted, He restored my joy. And when I said I was disappointed in “them”, He gave me new evidence of why I can trust Him to fulfill every promise He’s made to me. So… I’ve learned to trust Holy Spirit when He tells me to do the unconventional. I hugged my pain and found my joy through its embrace. God has done more than I could ever hope for and I know He’s not through blessing me yet.
What He’s done for me I know He will do for you! Don’t always get up so quick when defeat, heartache, pain and rejection come your way. You have emotions and feelings, both good and bad for a reason. Let Holy Spirit minister to you in and throughout the process of recovery and healing. Trust Him, it will save you time and unnecessary grief the next time you encounter real life and it’s people who bring traumas and dramas with them. Amen? AMEN
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